...is currently going on in our home.
We're having a boy! Why is it so hard to pick out a name? We only had boys' names picked out but we can't seem to agree on one whole name.
Our initial name would have been Rowan Alexander Shreiner. BUT I have this "rule" that we can't use names that are already in the family. So I don't want to use Alexander.
So I decided to scratch the whole name and start over. I think this is the hardest decision ever. I know I didn't have this many issues naming my daughters. So why is naming our son so hard!?
We have names we like, but don't seem to jive with Shreiner. We could make it a junior but again, I don't like naming my kid someone else's name.
We have had suggestions of Logan- but that's my sister's dogs name. Landon- my husband doesn't like. Cole or Colton is a no go- again the hubby isn't into them or we know someone who has that name. I know we can't have a totally unique name that no one else has but we want to stay away from people in our circle of family and friends.
I also have a name association thing, if there was anybody in our lives that we didn't particularly get along with or aren't fond of, we won't use their names.
So we're back to Rowan....but Rowan what!? is the question.
Rowan Avery?
Rowan Knox?
Rowan James?
Rowan Darius?
Any suggestions? Any new ideas?
Names that are definately out are...
*Normal everyday names like Adam, David, Ryan, Lee/Leigh, Samuel, Keith, Thomas and Scott.
*Names already in the family, Alexander, Michael, Remington, Nicholas, Xavier, Cooper, Trenton, Stephen, Charles, and William.
*Others off the list are, Marvin, Claude, Todd, Logan, Landon, Kade, Cammeron, vintage names, totally off the wall names and names of objects, seasons, weather etc.
Friday, March 9, 2012
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
My own worst enemy...
....is myself.
I don't know how to do things "small". When I plan an event, life, work, school, home, etc. I plan BIG. Sometimes too big!
In the last year I have accomplished a lot and I have fallen back on even more. I took on a new job, continued schooling, planned and pulled off my wedding (with help of course but the planning was all me!) all while attending college near finals and bringing the girls home from private school and acclimating to being a full-time mommy again. I also got the girls enrolled in the local school.
Got pregnant, not once but twice. The first pregnancy resulted in miscarriage which turned my world upside-down. I didn't realize it until now how bad if had affected me, my life, my schooling and most of all my job. I became depressed, unhappy with myself and un-motivated. I couldn't focus at school or at work. I fell behind at work because I knew I couldn't fail school. So now I have to play catch-up which is daunting and makes me feel super-inadequate. I hadn't realized how behind I got until the end of last year and the beginning of this year. There are forms due, audits being performed and me going, "Crud! Where do I start, which should I do first!?"
The second (and current) pregnancy gave me new hope and new fear. I was hesitant untill about 12 weeks along about being excited. Now that I know we are having a healthy little boy I am more excited to move on with life. Making even more "risky" decisions to hopefully make our lives a little less complicated (or possibly more...lol) and give me the opportunity to make money to help support our house and be home at the same time.
But what does that mean!? I have to quit my job, get this place in tip-top shape, no more avoiding the annoyances but facing them full forced. It means a little more anxiety for the moment but not for all time. It means I have to get my a** in gear!
If only I had faced the facts last fall, if only I had realized what burden I was placing on myself of being a mom, a wife, a student, a babysitter, a office manager, and a prego! My brain is mush- I forget things constantly. But I have to push forward. I have to get it all done! I have to focus. I have to have faith in myself and my family to help me pull through. I know I can do this, I've done harder things. But I think I may have overdone some things as usual. :-)
I don't know how to do things "small". When I plan an event, life, work, school, home, etc. I plan BIG. Sometimes too big!
In the last year I have accomplished a lot and I have fallen back on even more. I took on a new job, continued schooling, planned and pulled off my wedding (with help of course but the planning was all me!) all while attending college near finals and bringing the girls home from private school and acclimating to being a full-time mommy again. I also got the girls enrolled in the local school.
Got pregnant, not once but twice. The first pregnancy resulted in miscarriage which turned my world upside-down. I didn't realize it until now how bad if had affected me, my life, my schooling and most of all my job. I became depressed, unhappy with myself and un-motivated. I couldn't focus at school or at work. I fell behind at work because I knew I couldn't fail school. So now I have to play catch-up which is daunting and makes me feel super-inadequate. I hadn't realized how behind I got until the end of last year and the beginning of this year. There are forms due, audits being performed and me going, "Crud! Where do I start, which should I do first!?"
The second (and current) pregnancy gave me new hope and new fear. I was hesitant untill about 12 weeks along about being excited. Now that I know we are having a healthy little boy I am more excited to move on with life. Making even more "risky" decisions to hopefully make our lives a little less complicated (or possibly more...lol) and give me the opportunity to make money to help support our house and be home at the same time.
But what does that mean!? I have to quit my job, get this place in tip-top shape, no more avoiding the annoyances but facing them full forced. It means a little more anxiety for the moment but not for all time. It means I have to get my a** in gear!
If only I had faced the facts last fall, if only I had realized what burden I was placing on myself of being a mom, a wife, a student, a babysitter, a office manager, and a prego! My brain is mush- I forget things constantly. But I have to push forward. I have to get it all done! I have to focus. I have to have faith in myself and my family to help me pull through. I know I can do this, I've done harder things. But I think I may have overdone some things as usual. :-)
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Our Gender Reveal
Wow what a whirlwind this last week has been! We decided a few months ago that we wanted to have a party to share the excitement and joy of finding out what baby number 3 would be. I started to call bakeries to see if they would be willing to do a gender reveal cake and found a lady that was very excited about it.
After scheduling the Ultrasound, we made up invitations that read "Pink or Blue, We have no Clue!" and send them to close family and friends inviting them to join us the Friday after our ultrasound to find out the gender of our little one.
Monday we had an ultrasound to check on baby's growth, any "soft" markers (meaning potential risk factors for cleft lip, organ malfunctions, etc) and of course to find out whether it was a boy or girl. But the hitch was that we didn't want to know the gender then and there. We asked the ultrasound technician to find out the sex and seal it in an envelope for us to reveal at a later date.
Then on Tuesday I delivered the results to the bakery and finalized the plans. We decided that if it was a girl the baker would swirl the cake with raspberry flavoring and if it were a boy the baker would swirl it with blue cake batter.
Friday I picked up the cake and the envelope that had our results. The baker had sealed the envelope back up but I was so tempted to look. But I didn't! (I'm really proud of myself for that!)
After getting the cake, attending some appointments, making dinner and tiding up our house. The guests started to arrive.
We had 40 people here! I didn't count them that night and I don't have pictures of them all but it was crazy! (In a good way) We had 19 children here and 21 adults. The children ranged from 11 months up.
After we knew that we had everybody here we decided to start the celebration.
Once we had everybody's attention we started to cut the cake. Brooke and Jaelyn didn't want to watch.
Once we cut the cake we learned our surprise! It was blue. It's a boy!
We are super stoked to be adding a little boy to our family. Ready for trucks, cars, dirt, t-shirt and jeans. Ready for baseball, hockey and all other little boy games. :-)
Everybody that attended the party made the event so much more exciting. We are thankful to have the support and love from our family and friends who shared the moment with us. Lots of laughter and joy was shared that night.
Bring on the the next few months! I'm ready for July already so I can meet our little man.
After scheduling the Ultrasound, we made up invitations that read "Pink or Blue, We have no Clue!" and send them to close family and friends inviting them to join us the Friday after our ultrasound to find out the gender of our little one.
Monday we had an ultrasound to check on baby's growth, any "soft" markers (meaning potential risk factors for cleft lip, organ malfunctions, etc) and of course to find out whether it was a boy or girl. But the hitch was that we didn't want to know the gender then and there. We asked the ultrasound technician to find out the sex and seal it in an envelope for us to reveal at a later date.
Then on Tuesday I delivered the results to the bakery and finalized the plans. We decided that if it was a girl the baker would swirl the cake with raspberry flavoring and if it were a boy the baker would swirl it with blue cake batter.
Friday I picked up the cake and the envelope that had our results. The baker had sealed the envelope back up but I was so tempted to look. But I didn't! (I'm really proud of myself for that!)
We had 40 people here! I didn't count them that night and I don't have pictures of them all but it was crazy! (In a good way) We had 19 children here and 21 adults. The children ranged from 11 months up.
After we knew that we had everybody here we decided to start the celebration.
Everybody that attended the party made the event so much more exciting. We are thankful to have the support and love from our family and friends who shared the moment with us. Lots of laughter and joy was shared that night.
Bring on the the next few months! I'm ready for July already so I can meet our little man.
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
I need your help!
My hubby and I are expecting baby #3 and we need your help. I want bright and colorful bedding and he is stuck on something we had picked out with our first pregnancy that ended in miscarriage. Don't get me wrong...I still like it too but I want to do something different. So I will need you to cast your vote on which bedding you like best. We are trying to be gender neutral...so here goes..
Bedding A- Dr. Suess One Fish Two Fish
http://www.target.com/p/Sumersault-Baby-Bedding-Collection-Geo-Brights/-/A-11289592
Bedding B-Circles
(sorry I couldn't get the image to copy into here so this is my last resort)
and lastly Bedding C- Monkey
Ready, set, vote!!
Monday, January 16, 2012
Why I'm not so private about some things...
Anybody that knows me, knows that I'm a talker. I can talk about ANYTHING. I may even switch from 1st gear to 3rd in a conversation without even know it. My close friends and family can keep up most of the time.
Why do I like to talk so much? I don't know but I can tell you this, by me talking to people and sharing some things that others may keep private I learn a lot about myself and others.
The one major thing I have figured out is that in some way everybody has some "skeletons" or similar situations where you can find a relationship and sense of "I'm not alone in this".
I know some people may not feel right sharing certain information and believe me there is some information that I DON'T and WON'T share. But in my case sharing things that some may not has always been my way of coping, and finding understanding when I have come across a challenge I know I cannot handle alone.
Why do I like to talk so much? I don't know but I can tell you this, by me talking to people and sharing some things that others may keep private I learn a lot about myself and others.
The one major thing I have figured out is that in some way everybody has some "skeletons" or similar situations where you can find a relationship and sense of "I'm not alone in this".
I know some people may not feel right sharing certain information and believe me there is some information that I DON'T and WON'T share. But in my case sharing things that some may not has always been my way of coping, and finding understanding when I have come across a challenge I know I cannot handle alone.
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Drudging up the past
I logged onto my email this morning to see that I had two new friend requests on FB. One person I thought for sure was some type of spam, hoax or just someone who wanted another friend added to their list. The other was a name I knew, a name I dreaded to see. Then I figured out the two were married.
Why did I dread seeing this name? First, the person has no direct relationship with me, one of their family members and I had the relationship. Second, this person and their family bring out a strong feeling of resentment from me.
I was young, naive and lost. I made a mistake and out of that mistake I gained a stronger sense of self a beautiful daughter and a relentless drive to perservere through the toughest of times without this person or their familys' help. But every so many years they pop up out of nowhere trying to gain some shred of connection. "Why?", is the question I ask and why now after 4 years!?
I'm resentful for the lack of support this person and their family have shown and their strong sense of rightousness they exude when they finally do connect with me in order to have a relationship with my daughter.
I should have mercy, I should forgive, but I won't be a fool.
Why did I dread seeing this name? First, the person has no direct relationship with me, one of their family members and I had the relationship. Second, this person and their family bring out a strong feeling of resentment from me.
I was young, naive and lost. I made a mistake and out of that mistake I gained a stronger sense of self a beautiful daughter and a relentless drive to perservere through the toughest of times without this person or their familys' help. But every so many years they pop up out of nowhere trying to gain some shred of connection. "Why?", is the question I ask and why now after 4 years!?
I'm resentful for the lack of support this person and their family have shown and their strong sense of rightousness they exude when they finally do connect with me in order to have a relationship with my daughter.
I should have mercy, I should forgive, but I won't be a fool.
Friday, December 9, 2011
Decisions
I have worked my current job since the beginning of the year. I took this job out of necessity of a part time job with good pay so I would be able to have the flexibility to be home with my girls more and go to school while they are in school. While the schedule has worked in my favor, the job is a stretch for me and my abilities. As I close out my first year I realize that I am not a good fit for this job. While I have been able to get by and get it done, I am not comfortable that I am doing it to the fullest capability.
So I have decisions to make. I'd love to stay home but we can't afford it. I currently have children I watch before and after school that supplement income that was lost by taking a part-time job and I know I am guarnateed at least one full time child for babysitting. I would need at least one more full time child to make it worth me staying home but childcare is not always a guaranteed income.
The job I currently have, has no benefits, no vacation, or retirement...so I wouldn't lose anything but income if I left.
Looking for guidance, insight, advice, anything. I see pros and cons with both jobs. Anybody have some insight they'd love to share?
So I have decisions to make. I'd love to stay home but we can't afford it. I currently have children I watch before and after school that supplement income that was lost by taking a part-time job and I know I am guarnateed at least one full time child for babysitting. I would need at least one more full time child to make it worth me staying home but childcare is not always a guaranteed income.
The job I currently have, has no benefits, no vacation, or retirement...so I wouldn't lose anything but income if I left.
Looking for guidance, insight, advice, anything. I see pros and cons with both jobs. Anybody have some insight they'd love to share?
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