Drudging up the past

I logged onto my email this morning to see that I had two new friend requests on FB. One person I thought for sure was some type of spam, hoax or just someone who wanted another friend added to their list. The other was a name I knew, a name I dreaded to see. Then I figured out the two were married.

Why did I dread seeing this name? First, the person has no direct relationship with me, one of their family members and I had the relationship. Second, this person and their family bring out a strong feeling of resentment from me.

I was young, naive and lost. I made a mistake and out of that mistake I gained a stronger sense of self a beautiful daughter and a relentless drive to perservere through the toughest of times without this person or their familys' help. But every so many years they pop up out of nowhere trying to gain some shred of connection. "Why?", is the question I ask and why now after 4 years!?

I'm resentful for the lack of support this person and their family have shown and their strong sense of rightousness they exude when they finally do connect with me in order to have a relationship with my daughter.

I should have mercy, I should forgive, but I won't be a fool.