So Full

Derek and I went to Chapel service with my girls this morning at MHS. I will be honest that I grumble and mumble about how annoying it is to have to pick my girls up on a Saturday and drive an hour home, have them spend the night and have to drive them an hour back to Hershey on Sunday morning to go to chapel with them and then turn around and drive back home for 4-5 hours before we have to drive back to Hershey by 5:00 pm to drop them back off at the student home because it's mandatory on this weekend to take them to chapel and it's always mandatory to take them back to the student home by 5:00 pm on Sundays.

But whenn we get there, I feel blessed. I have an overwhelming feeling flood my body and my heart feels full. Today my heart felt especially full. I don't know if it was because we were about to worship the Almighty, or the fact that they had elementary students reading scriptures and leading us in prayer, or the fact that my fiance was there supporting US, that we are about to officially become a family in two months, we sang Amazing Grace and it brought tears to my eyes. There was a soloist (an MHS student- HS Division) sing "Held" by Natalie Grant. The question was asked today... "Who do you serve?"  I will be frank, I have never fully served God, but it's something I want to do. I just don't always know how, and sometimes I feel out of place, awkward or ignorant to His work.

I wasn't raised going to church. We didn't really speak of God. Except for the not-so-nice Oh my (fill in the blank). I believe in Him, but I know I don't always serve Him. But either way, I know when I walk into His house of worship, any of them, I feel full, I feel an overwhelming sensation come over my body, it makes me feel whole, it fills my eyes with tears. I know that when Derek and I bring the girls home, I'd really like to find a church that we all feel comfortable in and go. We may not go every Sunday, but I'd still like to have that "extended family", that place where we can go to honor our creator.